What have I been thinking all the while? I realised I have been seeking for something always which I thought I needed. In fact, was it a desire instead? The question was reflected within my subconscious when the re-bound pinch into me.
For the last 2 years, I thought I have found & given someone TLC which I thought was something coming out from my own will & never expected an assume. Time & time again, I can't help but hoping my sincerity was answered. Nevertheless, it was not answered & it back-fired onto me. Analysing from the incident, it was actually my desire for a return when I give. I just can't help it. From the same point of view on a side note, I was actually giving something I hope to received. All the endurance & giving have made things turned out to be nasty. Afterall, there is a limit to an individual's tolerance, isnt it? Because of wrong mindset at the very beginning, I lost a friend. Things are never the same. But having said that, I have done my part to salvage, it's up to the other party.
