I thought I could forget about everything

A year plus? Didnt knew time past so fast. The last I have seen her was almost a year ago.
Having said so, I thought after all these while, I have started to move on and get on with the old self whom i was before. Till I had this chat with my best BUDD yest, I realise that there is no longer any feelings, in fact, it was the impact that stumbled onto me since then.

No doubt, you create a very big impact to me. You made me changed, hopefully for the better, but because the hurt you left me was too deep, changed my thoughts, character, and even my emotions into another person who i myself also doubt whether am I me???

I had to face it, and determine to forget everything tt left me bad memories, time has past, if I hadn't seen wat i see & hear wat i heard, i wouldn't have left with no choice but to give it up. Wishing all the best for you was what i can say to u, I only i got the chance, i would rather you have stayed with me. You have teached me alot of things, u gave me the best in my life I ever had, but you have also left me with the worst in my life when u go....

I THOUGH I COULD FORGET ABOUT EVERYTHING ever since. many months, many hours, many minutes have past.. Now, sometimes your smile is still in my memory, whenever i thought of it makes it feel so wonderful. when i opened my eyes, i look around me, im filled with emptiness..

I want to forget about everything. I had to move on, i don't wanna get trapped into the person i am now, im horrible... Thx Brother. you know who you are. I will listen to your words..